HG...yet again

Since the past two years I kept telling Sachin that I don't want another baby because I don't think I can deal with my hyperemesis again and he always got mad at me saying you just think too much. But I know the chances of having hyperemesis in subsequent pregnancies is too high.
Stats say there are only 1% pregnancies that result in hyperemesis and out of those only 5% are lucky enough not to have hyperemesis again. I was lucky enough to be in the 1% but i can't trust myself to be double lucky... so here I am suffering again with HG!

People say everything happens for our good...I wonder what good it stores in for me. How good it can be when you can't feel the joy of your baby, when you can't even sit back to cherish that you are going to be a mom. With Aanya I always wished I would die and get rid of this...but I don't want to wish for that now..because I have my lil girl in front of me and I want to live for her.

I was lucky to have my mom's presence around me this time. Just like me she thinks of her little girl all the time and keeps doing things to make me feel better. True...God can't be everywhere..that's why he made moms!

And not to forget my friends...as they say true friends are just a call away. But for me they were not even a call away...they were at my door when I needed them most. Thanks Shalini and Mansi for being there and taking care of me and my family.

I know there's light at the end of the tunnel...just the tunnel is too long. But I will fight and try to be as strong as I can be...and wait for that precious moment which will make this pain worthwhile.