HG...yet again

Since the past two years I kept telling Sachin that I don't want another baby because I don't think I can deal with my hyperemesis again and he always got mad at me saying you just think too much. But I know the chances of having hyperemesis in subsequent pregnancies is too high.
Stats say there are only 1% pregnancies that result in hyperemesis and out of those only 5% are lucky enough not to have hyperemesis again. I was lucky enough to be in the 1% but i can't trust myself to be double lucky... so here I am suffering again with HG!

People say everything happens for our good...I wonder what good it stores in for me. How good it can be when you can't feel the joy of your baby, when you can't even sit back to cherish that you are going to be a mom. With Aanya I always wished I would die and get rid of this...but I don't want to wish for that now..because I have my lil girl in front of me and I want to live for her.

I was lucky to have my mom's presence around me this time. Just like me she thinks of her little girl all the time and keeps doing things to make me feel better. True...God can't be everywhere..that's why he made moms!

And not to forget my friends...as they say true friends are just a call away. But for me they were not even a call away...they were at my door when I needed them most. Thanks Shalini and Mansi for being there and taking care of me and my family.

I know there's light at the end of the tunnel...just the tunnel is too long. But I will fight and try to be as strong as I can be...and wait for that precious moment which will make this pain worthwhile.

The bell rings again...

I had this weird feeling since yesterday. I felt queasy and dizzy and started throwing up all of a sudden. Being a mom I knew what it was even before i ran a pregnancy test. But like everything in life we need a proof...and LO I had a proof in my hand in the next hour.
Yes I am pregnant again....
Don't know if I am happy or scared or a mix of both... The only thing I can visualize right now is that precious moment where I hold the most beautiful creation of God in my hand!!

Time flies!!

Yes.. I never really understood what this phrase means till my daughter was born. And time just flies now. It's been 2 years since she was born and it still feels like it was yesterday. I can feel her tender body, I can see my trembling fingers when I first held her, I can hear the coos she made in my arms... all of it is still so fresh in my mind.
I didn't even realize that my last post was almost an year back. As a matter of fact I don't even realize when my day starts and when it ends. God should have blessed mothers with an extra set of helping hands, another set of eyes, more importantly another set of brain .But I guess that would have been in vain too. we would have soon run out of the extra help as well :)
Everything I do these days is around her. Life has changed in the past 2 years, but it never seem to bother me anymore. Aal the effrots, all the hard work and all the pain seems worthwhile for that one beautiful smile!!